Monday, October 21, 2019

OCT 21 2019

 FIRST CHALLANGE MET-- I DON'T OFTEN DRIVE IN THE DARK- ONLY BECAUSE  I DON'T WNAT TO GO MOST PLACES WHEN I REALLY WANT TO BE ASLEEP=  BUT GWEN NEEDED A RIDE TO THE AIRPORT SHUTTLE  SO AT 3:45AM I WAS FACED WITH  HOW TO TURN ON TH E LIGHTS IN THE CAR I HAVE OWNED FOR 4 YEARS?? 
 EVER SINCE TEH CAR BEGAN TO DECIDE WHEN TO DO WHAT, I LOST INTEREST ( AND ABILITY) TO  MANUAL DO ABOUT ANYTHNG WIT IT.  IT WAS NICE TO HAVE GWEN VISIT-- SHE FINALLY GOT THE BACK WINDSHIEL WIP-[ER TURNED OFF-- IT HAS BEEN ON FOR A WHILE...
SHE ALSO INFORMED ME THAT  THERE ARE INDEED  POSTERS NEXT TOTHE ROAD WITH 65 ON THEM-- I HAD NEVER NOTICED ONE BEFORE-  AND SWORE THERE WERE STILL 55 ONES THERE-- TEHRE ARE ALOT OF ONES THAT SAY 95--  BUT SHE TELLS ME THOSE ARE ROUTE NUMBERS NOT SPEED LIMITS.
SHE INTRODUCED SO MANY NEW CONCEPTS--LIKE UBER FOOD-- NOW THERE IS ONE I NEED TO KNOW ABOUT.SHE ALSO MOVED  A SOFA IN TEH GUEST HOUSE AND POINTED OUT THAT ALTHO THE PLACE LOOKS VERY TIDY, THERE IS A WHOLE WORLD   "BEHIND" THINGS/- SHE SUGGESTED TEH NEXT CREW FROKM GENERAL ELECTRIC .  OH DEAR.... AND TEH GOOGLE GUESTS ARE ARRIVING--THEY SHOULD HAVE ALREADY LANDED ON THE RED EYE FROM CALIF-- AND I AM WAITING FOR TEH POHONE CALL TO SAY THEY ARE NON THE  6AM SHUTTLOE TO PEABODY-- WHERRE I JUST LEFT OFF GWEN AT 4AM..
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I PICKED UP TEH 12 PASSENGER VAN-- LOOKS RAND NEW.. SPOTLESS- I CERTAINLY HOPE IT IS NOT ONE OF THOSE WHICH AUTOMATICALLY LOCKS ALL TEH DOORS- OR I WILL HAVE ANOTHER   UNANTICIPATED CHALLAGE.

GOT TO GT OUT THE "MOVING BLANKETS AND SOME FLUFFIES- BECAUSE NOT ONLY TECHS AND PROFESSORS, BUT WE WILL HAVE 2 DANES WITH US.. THEY ARE THE INTRODUCTION TO ALL THESE PLACES- PEOPLE KNOW THOSE 2 DANES.  SIZZLE AND BENTLEY.
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THE ONLY FYI I CAN THINK OF FOR TEH DAY -- IS.. ON THE NORTHBOUDN LANE OF ROUTE 1  IN PEABODY- MASS   TEHRE IS "REDS"  WHICH IS AN HONEST TRAILER STOP SERVING BREAKFAST  OR STEAK DINNERS 24 HOURS A DAY-- AND A DARN GOOD FOOD  AT THAT -- ESPECIALLY EGGS BENEDICT-
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THE PICTURES OF MY FAMILY WALKABOUT ON STILTS IS AROUND-- I THINK VANESSA TOOK SOME- ALL3 OF US-- GWEN, JANINE, AND ME PLUS 2 VERY CONFUSED DOGS.- I SHOULD SAY 2.1 CONFUSED DOGS ( 2 DANES AND A JACK RUSSEL)
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PHONE SHOUJLD RING  THEY SHOULD HAVE LANDED BYNOW...
  I DON'T HAVE THE FLIGHT NUMBERS OR I WOULD BE WATCHIGN   "FLIGHTAWARE"

BETTER GRAB ANOTHER CUPPA


Pictures below are of Rizz and I at yesterday’s Petoberfest event, which had over 700 dogs in attendance.  As you can see, Rizz has NO issues with other dogs.  She also had to deal with the thousands of people, barking dogs, and children in attendance - as always, she was a perfect example of the well trained service dogs produced by SDP.  Due to her modeling skills, we also sold lots of products and made $120 for SDP which I will be sending at the end of the month in addition to  what we make at next weekend’s event.

I am so glad you took a chance on us - hope you are too!

Heidi

Sunday, October 20, 2019

OCT 20 2019

quick run to the airport for the 12 seater van ( from hertz) for tomorrows ROAD SHOW PROJECT with the google team  and professor(s)   i gave up on "excedrine car rental" company- i can't remember their name i--- it begins with  E and was such a headache all i can think of is excedrine for a name.----\hertz is not without annoyances---  i called...  .. wanna rent press1 --- next question ..  are yo over 55? press 1--and it started-- "have you tought of a lifesaver button to push in case you start having a heart attack-- the symptoms of which i would like to list ofr your......." and it went on and on..so i hung up and screamed obsentaties for at leaSt 14 minutes.... before i realized i coudl call back and say no.. which got me to a hertz person who easily booked a van for me to pick up at teh airport this morning.

HAVING A HANDICAPPED STICKER, I RARELY HAVE TO PUMP GAS-- SO I WAS UNAWARE OF THE TV SHOW AT THE GAS PUMPS...
THAT WAS AS BIG A SHOCK AS BEING INVADED WITH COMMERCIAL WHEN TRYING TO RENT A CAR.-- THE PACKAGE TAPE ON THE AMAZON PACKAGES NOW HAS COMMERCIALS ON IT.. IS THERE NO  OPPORTUNITY  LEFT TO LOAD UP  WITH AN  ADVERTISING  OPPORTUNITY?? TOILET PAPER????
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AND THEN THERE IS  THE RAISING OF CHILDREN--- YESTERDAY-- ON THE WAY TO THE PUB FOR LUNCH-- WE PAASSED A VERY EXPENSIVE PLAYGROUND WITH  PLASTIC SHIPS, SLIDES  AND SWINGS - NOT ONE KID  ON THE ENTIRE 3 ACRES OF PLAYGROUND
THERE COULD BE ALOT OF REASONS....  THE BIGGEST WAS RIGHT UP THE STREET WHERE TEH FARMERS MARKET WAS GIVING HAY RIDES PULLED BY A TRACTOR-- AN INACTIVE FUN ON THE FARM DAY FOR PARENTS AND KIDS TO GET THE "FEEL OF FARMING"  WHILE SITTING ON A WAGON--  AND TEH FARM HAS TO IMPORT A PLANE LOAD OF IMMIGRANTS EVRY  GROWING SEASON TO DO TH E ACTUAL  WORK...  ( FACT --THEY ALL GO HOME IN THE FALL) I COULD ONLY WONDER HOW MANY OF THAT WAGONLOAD OF PEOPPLE WERE ON THEIR CELL PHONES AT THE TIME...( I LIKE IMMIGRANTS--- I LIKE MY CORN AND SOME VEGGIES) 
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ONE OF THE FIRST DOGS I PUT  OUT WNET TO A WOMAN WHO BROKE DOWN WHEN HER NEW DOG GOT HER  UP A  4 INCH CURB TO GET TO THE SUPER MARKET. SO MANY TIME I PUT IN HERE WHAT WONDERFUL THINGS THE DOGS DO... AND I GOT THIS EMAIL MAYBE IT WILL MAKE YOU AWARE OF THE  TINY  ANNOYANCES SOMEONE HAS TO DEAL WITH  WITHOUT A DOG.
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Elvis says it all for people like her human, so many others including myself!

Example,my husband is unwell this week pulling a muscle

I needed some items at a store which had no scooters or buggy's to lean on, they had for baskets with a handle and wheels where everyone was too busy to help so using my under arm crutches trying to pull the basket to collect my items now trying to handle 3 things and no balance falling once and finding a hand to pick my items up and put into the basket while trying to hold 2 crutches and a handle to the basket in one arm and hand, then switching the one crutch back to the free hand continuing to pull basket with hand and crutch to check out.

I use crutches underarm on these days to rest on when getting tired but a scooter is necessary for shopping.  Sometimes there are no scooters so I take a buggy to lean on putting my crutches inside the buggy and lean on it to free a hand to pick things up (which makes me very tired).

Anyway, I had a scooter going along by myself picking up my items when another guy passed me on a scooter who appears younger and I said hello as I do everyone.
We made a few comments as I moved on to my chores.

During my shopping  this man kept showing up in front of me causing me to stop!
He kept trying to talk with inappropriate conversation, I began by ignoring him.
Twice he showed up running into me from behind and I was now getting very uncomfortable.

I checked my things out and leaving the store he is now in a truck waiting outside sitting where I had to roll past him as he now wants to know if I had a light?
I again ignored and very frightened!

Using my crutches trying to put things in the car to leave ASAP I fell twice trying to get back up as this man is sitting in his truck watching me.
This was so scary I wasn't on my game getting the crutches and myself into the car for safety.

I locked my doors and called my husband and said "I've hit an all time low being hit on riding a scooter, falling 3 times, trying to control 2 crutches pulling a basket on wheels behind me and now a full car that needs unloading.    Husband I am too tired to cook -----I'm bringing drive threw food home!

No one can ever imagine how difficult the simplistic things they do are the most difficult things for a person who has no balance and some days just too weak to walk far.      Elvis and SDP a job well done!
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It has been such an honor to watch Chip shine at SDP!  He is taking his role of "treat giving" to the dogs very seriously! He had been independent and driving himself but in August he had an accident and is no longer driving - so I have been taking him multiple times a week... consequently I have fallen in love with your dogs!  If there is a waitlist for dogs that do not work out to be service dogs could you put me on it? 
I will be back next week with Chip! ��
Sara 

NOW IF SOME ONE WOU DL REMIND ME  ... 

Saturday, October 19, 2019

OCT 19 2019
CAKE DAY-- AND I ALREADY DELIVERED MINE TO GEORGETOWN. ( BETSY DOES IPSWICH)  
I HAD A NOTE FROM ELVIS--- THOUGHT YOU MIGHT LIKER THAT BETTER THAN MY RAMBLINGS
I WILL GO BACK TO MY GOAT PEN PROJECT TODAY

My name is Elvis and I’m a service dog. 
My human came to the Boston from England for medical treatment in 2016. She expected to be here for no more than eight weeks; now, over three years later, she lives full-time in Boston.  She has a complex medical history including dystonia/muscle spasticity, which means that she walks differently than most people. Until I came into her life, she used a wheelchair or crutches for movement. 
 I was born and raised at the Service Dog Project in Ipswich, MA. I was trained as a mobility service dog and was donated to my human in May 2018. I help her walk, balance, and navigate the world. Since I came into her life she has been able to put her crutches and wheelchair away for the most part, although when she does need her wheelchair I am also trained to pull that! She always tells me how much freedom I have given her. Before me she avoided a lot of things. When she came to a set of steps, she was frightened, knowing she would likely fall. When she slipped and stumbled, she often found herself stuck on the floor with her crutches, unable to get up.
Since I came into her life, we take on steps without a doubt. I stop numerous falls, supporting her when she stumbles. If I am unable to stop her from falling, no matter how hard I try, I am right there to get her off the floor. My human often tells me that it is the little moments that make her smile every day. These are simple freedoms like knowing she can step up onto the curb while walking down the street, or grab something off a shelf without losing her balance. I am always right by her side, and if she loses her balance, I’m there to catch her. When she becomes very dizzy or ends up passing out, I am there to support her. I know my human inside and out. I know the days we can play around and the days when I need to be more focused on keeping her safe. I brace to keep her upright, lay under her legs when she is unconscious, and do all I can to support her. I am basically a moving crutch with four legs and a huge heart!
We have been through numerous hospital admissions, surgeries, and emergency room trips together. No matter what situation she puts me in, I am always there to help her navigate the world despite her chronic medical conditions. We have ups and downs, but stick together. For instance, at the beginning of this year my human was really not well at all. Through a long hospital stay, I made sure I slept at the end of her bed every night. I helped her take her first steps during the really tough moments after her surgeries. While I was trained specifically for mobility, during the time we have been a team, I have learned how to read her other medical signals. I am now very in tune with my human. I tend to notice when she is feeling off before she does. Sometimes I can tell that her blood sugar is off, or that she is having a bad mobility day, or that her cardiac issues are acting up. I make sure to tell her when things are off. In this way, I have saved her from getting very sick or hurt multiple times. 
I’m not sure people always realize how important I am to my human and how much I have changed her life. I have prevented multiple emergency room visits, concussions, and injuries.  Perhaps even more important, I have allowed my human to grow so much more confident about living life despite her medical challenges. I have helped remind her that she is so much more than her medical conditions, no matter what they try throwing at her. Looking back at our time together, it is incredible seeing all the achievements she has accomplished with me by her side. I also know that her friends and family are so grateful that my human can live life independently now that she has me. She can have the life she wants, because she is never alone. I always keep an eye on her. 

Image Description: Elvis and his human in the hospital. Elvis is wearing scrubs and his human is smiling broadly.
Balancing school, health, an internship, and life can seem quite challenging at times, but we embrace every moment. We made a promise to ourselves to live life to the fullest, make the best memories, and pursue our goals without looking back. My human also has some incredible doctors that helped inspire her passion to work in medicine. (Not that she needed much pushing! She has been known to take her finals in the hospital the night before surgery.) She just loves to help people, especially children, in any way she can. In fact, we both love volunteering with kids. Before me, she couldn’t do this volunteer work very often because of her mobility challenges. Now, we do it together all the time. 
I would be lying if I said there weren't any moments where my human’s health scares us! There are definitely tough days, especially during hospital stays. Through it all, however, she has a determination that never seems to fade. She says that she couldn’t do it without me or the support system she has built. We help her “just keep swimming”, a saying that she holds on to in those tough moments. We always keep swimming, no matter what life throws at us, together. There’s another saying she says a lot, which I like. When people doubt her ability to pursue her goals, or try to put limits on her, she says: “Just because my path is different, doesn’t mean I am lost.” We walk through the world together, and that might seem different to some people, but we are definitely not lost. While we never expected our journey to look like this, we know we are exactly where we need to be. 
I am Service Dog Elvis and I have helped give my human her life back. You can follow my adventures on Instagram @servicedogelvis and my trainers, The Service Dog Project, at @servicedogproject!

Friday, October 18, 2019

OCT 18 2019
quick doggie ..
gwen's roadshow input  pertaining to operating teh smart tv's and related equipment-- typed by her ( probably spelled correctly0

Part of the planning for the senior center road show, the thing to get the explore cameras going on the smart tv's, needs to include a plan for the next day. The day after these things get up and running, the shift will change, a new person comes along and moves the google device to the side. Now it's out of range and can't reach the wifi. So it doesn't work that day. The next shift comes in and does not know what the thing is, and puts it in a drawer and everyone forgets where it is. Is it battery operated? That means it's not tethered by a cable and can wander off. Are there buttons and settings that can accidentally be changed? And only 1 person who knows how to operate it? They will then proceed to go on vacation or go have a baby, and no one else will be able to get the thing working. Are the instructions documented, on a piece of laminated paper hanging on a hook in the office of the activities director? Maybe those directions need to be attached to a giant piece of wood, kind of like the key to the bathroom at a gas station. And when it does get lost, or spilled on, the activities director needs to be able to print another one. Stuff like that. There is a maintenance piece to this operation that also needs to be addressed. 

THANK YOU GWEN... WE NEEDED THAT.


IT’S OFFICIAL! WE HAVE MORE THAN 1 MILLION VIEWS OF THE VIDEO OF SHAUNA AND KRINGLE GOING DOWN THE STAIRS AT HOME!

Thursday, October 17, 2019

oct 17 2019

GOOD OLD GOLDIE.....THE CIRCLE TIGHTENS....ONE OF PAULA'S PUPS DOES LOOK "BLUE" - AND PAULA HAS PLENTY OF BLUE IN HER BACKGROUND  AS BLACK OUT OF BLUE IS OFTEN MIXED WITH BLACK OUT OF HARL.----- I ASKED CP'S TO LOOK OVER AN BLUE PUPS IN EUROPE--  AND A CP ( MARYELLEN) FOUND SOME... ?IN HUNGARY?( LEAN-ON-ME.EU)    I HAVE NOT HAD TIME TO DO A FULL SEARCH-- BUT IT LOOKS POSSIBLE.. -- I LIKE HUNGARY... BOBBY CAME VROM BUDAPEST ( HE WAS  BENTLEYS GRANDFATHER)  AND A QUICK LOOK AT THE PEDIGREE OF TEH PUPS INCLUDES  TOP GRANDFATHER -von-Haus-Tiefenbach-- ON THAT DIZZY TRIP THRU EUROPE WITH COLLEGE FRIEND GWEN, WE LANDED AT TIEFFENBACH-- I EVENTUALY IMPORTED A FEWP[ BLUE PUPS FROM THEM-- I THINK SHASHA? WAS TEH 20 YEAR OLD TYOPE PERSON RUNNING TEH KENNEL AND I RAN INTO THAT NAME TODAY'S PEDIGREE - 
I ALSO RAN INTO THE DOG NAME  "NAHBAY"  WHICH IS THE STUD DOG WHO'S SPERM I  TRIED TO IMPORT IN THE  FRENCH AIRLINE -FEDEX- USDA- GEORGE MYERS- LIQUID NITROGEN REFILL( FROME AMESBURY MASS) - STORED FOR YEARS IN CALIFORNIA- AND UNSUCCESSFULLY  SURGICALLY IMPLANTED IN  RHODE ISLAND... AND IN BENTLEYS  SISTER "OPAL"  .. FIASCO... 

YESTERDAY ---I WAS IN  AMESBURY AND SAID TO JANINE " UP THAT ROAD IS WHERE YOU GET INDUSTRIAL GASSES LIKE LIQUID NITROGEN..
SHE SAID SHE NHAD NOT NEED FOR LIQUID NITROGEN - AND I SAID "YOU DO NOT KNOW IF YOU EVER WILL THO" 

SO-----WE NEED TO COMP-ARE PAULA'S PEDIGREE WOTH THOSE PUPS  AND SEE IF TEHY ARE STILL AVAILABLE.. WHATVER--- THERE IS ALOT OF RESEARCH TO DO./.. AND I CAN NOT GET AT IT TIL AFTER TEH  GOOGLE /EXPLORE EPISODE IS OVER NEXT WEEK-- WHEN WE FINISH UP  WITH THE AMESBURY COUNCIL ON AGING-- RIGHT DOWN THE STREET FROM THE LIQUID NITROGEN STORE !!!

NOT THAT I WILL EVER  CHEERFULLY ATTEMPT AN ARTIFICAIL IMPLAnt  again--- i have never had one be successful  and never had a natural cover fail-- plus it is easier to import the entire pup than to tangle with the usda  trying to import  just teh frozen sperm...
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the other farm excitement is that  general electric -- 20 of them-- are coming here to volunteer  tomorrow-- friday--
and teh last piece of this 12 acres not  in use  will hopefully become  "goat  hill"
it is the area between the guest house and puppy hill-- needs a 6' fence between  and then the goats can climp that steep mess of tangled vegitation- and hopefully eat it.
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whooooopps
judy is here --  i forgot   i am speaking at a rotary meeting at 7:15 
judy is my external memory device.
luckily i am dressed !!

Wednesday, October 16, 2019

OCT 16 2019
 creativity !  as in that TED  lecture by ken robertson ( google it i have said beopfer -- should be read by anyone trying to raise children-- or grandchildren...) as we go around to set up these adult day care centers in a variety of financial levels-- i find--- some of teh most financially challanging adult day care centers are so much better off than the  day cares in the very wealthy community- and alot depends on teh"  get up and go"  of teh activities director- THE EXPENSIVE ONES HAve teh moen y to hire  people with the correct degrees..... they know alot of big words...

 i don't want to poo poo  higher education  (HA ! )  but tehre is one  cheerful place where tehe activities director is a hot spook- with a ready laugh- very observant and does not miss a thing.-- how lucky they ar to have her--- and i wonder if they know that she should be making twice teh salary of teh  double degreed person who needs to fill in teh littel boxes of hte calendaR tO keep the directores happy aT THE NEXT MEETING.

THIS CONCEPT IS WHY-- I THINK-- ALL THSES PLACES HAVE THESE "SMART TV" S THAT ARE MORE FOR SHOW THAN USE...  THEY SIURE LOOK GOOD--- THATA BIG BLACK RECTANGLE ON THE WALL-- THAT NO ONE USES-- 
NOT ENOUGH 12 YEAR OLDS TO EKKP THEM RUNNING I GUESS..
we hope to change that.   with googles help  and someone named maureen  from wisconsin  --who is a dr of  gentxxxxxxxxx (old people).
well --- i am old--- have at it !!

IN TEH MEANTIME I HAVE RENTED A 12 PASSENGER VAN FOR MON TUES WHEN THESE PEOPLE WILL BE HERE SO WE CAL TALK AND TRAVEL/
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couple   CP people are trying to locate a litter of blue danes-- there is sch a thing... blue is recessive so if both parents are blue- you will have blue pups.     that could be fun-  there is a "black out of blue-- where you might get some blue---  paula is that kind of bloodlines..
 but since we import the stud anyway- i see no reason not to try for a blue stud--  migh make for some intereisting color  harlequins-- but we don't really mind-- must be a darn good blue-- probably from germany -- so we don't run into the rabies law that makes yo ship aq pup to spain to get to boston.-- like we had to with terichard-- from czech--  

so have at it everyone--  i would rather get a german pup than an akc one-- since the blue is
recessive-- i don't think the akc has as much a vaRIETY OF BLUE-- AND TOO MANY BREED RELATIVES TO GET THE COLOR.... TEH DEUSCHE DOGGEN ( GERMAN REG)  IS A BIT MORE COMPLETE IN THE HIP EXRAYS ETC...  SO IF YO FIND A NICE BLUE PUP-- PR A BREEDING ABOUT  TO HAPPEN .. LET ME KNOW.

Tuesday, October 15, 2019

oct 15 2019

OUR ROAD SHOW IS GAINING MOMENTUM-- WELL NOT MOMENTUJM BUT MORE PEOPLE-- NEXT MONDAY 2 TECHS FROM CALIFORNIA, plus  ONE PROFESSOR FROM MICHIGAN ( STUDYING THE PROBLEM) JUDY JANINE AND ME--  PLUS BENTLEY AND SIZZLE WILL BE OUT GO AROUND TO TRY AND SET THIS UP.. WHILE WE RIDE AROUND IN THE CAR, WE CAN DISCUSS WHAT AND WHY- WHICH MEANS I THINK IT WOULD BE HELPFUL TO RENT A VAN FOR  TEH -- AT LEAST 7 PEOPLE AND 2 DOGS. AND MAYBE GET BUD TO DRIVE IT????
GOLDIE IS ON IT - JUDY AND I WENT TO COSTCO TO SIT AND EAT ( WHILE WAITING FOR A DOG TO GET BORED,,,) DARNED IF WE DON'T SIT At a table with an aquaintance of bill cummings.- this whole road show is something which hopefully will attract his financial interest -  there is a huge problem of generic boredom-- how fascinated can you be in puzzles for hours on end..   there are ways we can make this live...
couple  concepts -- having pups "worked" in teh arena on some schedule....  activity directoea can call the office and have some one wave gave a bunch  of inmates gives  a huge boost... and  we could do that on a mass  schedule by just sitting a white board in the corner of the screen with a time on it rhAt we will "respond"  with waving....  -- 
i hate to tempt fate.... but....   
 teh fry pan  is  an absolute brilliant concept  for animal interaction... my only accident in 20 years  was a woman who's foot got scratched by a dog toenail- what a fuss "bitten by a great dane"  was the story.. ! so this 10 " fry pan maneuver  keeps teh dogs toenails back 10 inches while their head is pattable and photographableas they eat teh cookie dropped in the pan 
 there are things like  having no collars or leashes is because in these places sometimes inmates "grab"  -- and or collars can be hooked on wheelchairs-
 give me 2 days and i bet i could have a donkey or two nursing home proof.   mary was---  duct tape on her feet  she was loose in the assisted living place to the delight of everyone.  i hae more faith in donkes than horses-- even tho mini horses get the press- they are still horses.  donkeys are more like dogs..  they think-- which can be good or bad.   obedience trained like a dog , teh donkey will become an obedience trained donkey,
been there done that...
back to the road show--- there are 2 varieties of facilities --  walk-ins... and... lock-downs from there the range is   very commercial- keep them  clean-dry- fed-- to the  " at 2:00 there will be a piano player in the atrium" 
one has a much bigger budget than the other..- i have not collected  stats on daily cost-- because  this concept is - hopefully a free/ non commercial one.
i have  much paperwork to do.-- i find "companies"  own strings of these- and not all are licensed/ reg with teh state--  at least that i hae found so far..  i keep thinking i have stuck teh master list only to find a place that does not "belong" tehre.
most notably-- today i am going to a  place that says they have adult day care- i know that  address  -- it is a  simple church-- and i don't see where they have  any careing for adults-- no one answers their phone-- you get teh "i am so glad you called..." bit. 
i need to figure that one out...  if it doesnt sound like a duck... then it probably is not a duck.
or somethign like that.
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LOTSA MELATONIN RESPONSES- HERE IS A GOOD ONE..
I have been using melatonin for years. I prefer the sublingual, that is you let it dissolve under your tongue. I buy 2.5 mg tablets and cut them in half. I rarely take a whole one. With the halves I often taken a second half later in the night if I wake and can't get back to sleep.But I have had bad nights where I took a whole one to start and one or two halves later on. My doctor said no more than 10mg per night and I have never needed that much.  I think 5mg at one time is probably overkill. Melatonin is notorious for vivid dreams. Mostly now I don't remember them in great detail. And I have gone days without taking it, so it is not addictive. It's been very helpful overall.